It has been a very emotional couple months for me due to a very stressful job environment (as of late), a loss of someone close to me to suicide (the very thing I advocate against), and some personal things that have led to my belief that my very world is crashing down on me with no hope of resurfacing. It has been so much so fast and so tough that I made a call to my doctor that I haven’t seen in three years to request a refill on the medication that I haven’t taken in two. Thankfully, the doctor refused to speak to me or see me because I had stopped going to see him. (Not sure what’s thankful about that as far as our mental health system goes, but that’s ten years of rants that I just don’t have the sanity for right now.)
I’m a huge fan of Book Riot, and when this article came up in my facebook feed – though I’ve seen a hundred of them like it since the very controversial Huffington Post article came to light – I paid attention.
admittedly, because of the link line that was so much like my Twilight rant years ago.
and it’s so true that I now live in a world that I am ashamed to tell people that I loved Twilight so much when it came out that I read the series more than once and yeah, I did cry when Edward left Bella in New Moon, and yeah, that kind of makes me sad because: Twilight got me writing. the very people who are writing these articles saying that nobody has the right to tell you to read would probably cringe while vomiting to hear me say that because Harry Potter is oh so much more valid than Twilight in a literature sense.
which it is, maybe, but that’s not the point.
but I shouldn’t be afraid or ashamed to admit that, because it got me writing. the first piece of fiction I ever wrote was inspired by the Twilight series, and it’s a bestseller, and it gave me the tools to write the most difficult piece of literature I have ever written or ever will write, and it led me to my boyfriend, and no, fuck no, I shouldn’t be ashamed to say any of that out loud. I shouldn’t be because I am a well read individual and I know that because I have read the classics, and I have read the products of the beat generation, and I know satire, and my opinion is valid when I say that HST is a fucking genius. just because I also love vampires and John Green doesn’t make me any less intelligent or well read.